Times like these...

well, one more happy ending or, at least, expected end of season? I don't know for sure... Actually, I hate xmas time... all that atmosphere evolving and blinding the real meaning of that time...

well, in times like these I fell depressed, saying things which have no meaning, picturing nonsense scenes... I don't feel quite well... it's a boring time... I don't know whether that has to do with the summer season, but it implies a lot on it, at least...
i hate hypochrisis and, so, there's a lot going on in xmas nowadays...the truth is i hate xmas for many reasons that have come from since i was a child... but i don't want to remember that... not for now...
i've felt quite lonely... quite empty... quite stupid... quite nothing... oh yeah, I feel like i'm nothing, i feel like i'm less than zero...but, i don't want to talk about it, cuz i might hurt those who'll try to do it...
however, this season, specially this one, have a special meaning... i can say i'm less lonely than i was for the last decade...

i can't understand why most people get happy with xmas... is it because of the goods? because of the foods? because of showing that you have a better ($) life than your relatives?
for me, xmas is the time that we can meet our relatives and kill that feeling of emptiness that stayed with us during the past year. for me xmas is the time that we can share our moments and experiences with those we care a lot with. for me, xmas time is the time we could share our gifts and goods and make our place a better one to be living in, worldwidely speaking or, at least, in the borders of our home...

I believe Jesus is the feeling of getting along with our relatives - known or not. Jesus is the one who came to Earth to bring more life, more beating of hearts for those who never care ever since...However, since that image of pursuing and so came to our lives, forget those words... you must have and show before you must be someone or even care with surrounds you...
because of this and because of everything else, for those who remains a little of the real xmas spirit, i wish you guys a merry xmas...

blergh!